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riffermaniac

how are yas, im new to this forum, the reason im here is because ive had alot of supernatural experiences. and eventually lead to psycosis and schizophenia. heres a bit of my story.
the first experience i had was when i was about 16. i was staying at my cousins house, along with another freind, who was a satanist, by that i mean he loved satanic black metal, and took it all very seriously, he used to talk about satans attack on heaven, and said he used to pray to satan and everything.
anyway that nite while we were sleeping in my cousins room, i noticed a very intense kind of energy came over me. it was pure evil. there was a very distinct sense of that. actually just now as i was writing this, i felt somthing come over me, like a tingley feeling like an energy. but not with a sense of hostility or anything. but then dissapeared as soon as i wrote, it was pure evil.
anyway back to the story. that very hostile energe seemed to pin me down with my arms crossed over my chest, and i felt intense pressure, i was raised as a christian, so my first instinct was to pray. as soon as i started to do that it went, quickly. i knew what had just happened to me. and i asked out loud, what do you want? ward the sataic guy who was sleeping near me started breathing alot heavyer and it strarted to sound quite distinctly like.
powerrrrrr powerrrrr. over and over again. then he returned to his normal breathing. it was pretty feakin creepy. i pondered on that for quite a while. then eventually decided to try go back to sleep even though i was afraid to do that because i didnt want to become velnerable.
that was the start of many strange things in my life. that sort of thing happened quite regularly. for years
another experience that stands out, is one nite at home i was in bed late at nite i couldnt sleep because i was pissed off about a guy i wasnt getting along with. and i was pictureing in my head about shooting him i was imgineing it. then i heard this very intense voice in my head that said. KILL THEM! KILL THEM ALL! it was not my voice. it was like somwon was saying it right into my ear. straight away i thaught fuck that shit! why am i even thinking about that sort of thing! and i thaught is this what crazy psyco serial killers are talking about when they say they heard voices telling them to kill? im not and never have been a violent or unmoral person. id never go that way.
i havnt got time to go through it all right now. theres a hell of alot more to tell. like i said voices in my head, weird very intense dreams. that wake me up. the experiences stayed bad for quite a while. i was allways trying to figure out what id done to deserve that shit. thats when i started to nit pick at my life and at myself. which lead to a depression. i started to think i was being persecuted, and became very stressed and eventually fell into a complete state of paranoid schizophenia, which i was hospitalised for. by the way the medication helped to restore me to rational thinking, but it didnt stop the voices or supernatural experiences. i told them theyd stoped otherwise id never get out of the psyc ward.
there was one guy in there that i was talking to, said he was a prophet he was convinced even after being in there on the medication for over a month. he said he seen jesus and he done somthing to his eye, then he said to me youve got a good soul, and you belong in heaven, youll get what you need. that was very comforting to me. and i thaught well whats the difference between him and the propherts in the bible. somwon these days thinks their a prophert and they end up in the psyc ward, but thousands of years ago somwon thinks the same thing and its taken as gods word and revered by thousands of people all over the world for generations. then he started to tell me that i am a servant, i have been annointed as a servant, he said he is a king he has a kingly annointing. at that point i was like hmmm and i said well i experienced alot in my life too. whos to say your not a prophert. but were both just servants. after that i was thinking about what he said. about him being a king. and it dawned on me woah! mayby somwon was speaking through him. get what i mean?
i dont take the whole relgious thing that seriously, i dont go to church or anything like that.
but i do have some kind of faith.

in more recent times the experiences have become good. voices giveing me words of advice
and stuff like that. and the dreams got better for example a few times i dreamed that i could fly. id feel this intense positive energy and id kind of instictively spread my arms and just jump into the air and take flight, the intensity of it would wake me up. then another time the same thing but then i just shot up into space at an amazing speed. i was looking down watching the landscape get smaller and smaller. still i could feel this intense energy that woke me up.

then it happenned again and i shot up into space and started running at a billion miles an hour through space, and i was running past plannets. and even a space probe. it woke me up and
as i was waking up i heard this very intense voice, it sounded really kind of angelic, but it said somthing pretty strange. it was somthing like, need not more for your tum tum, i had gained a bit of weight lately, but still i thaught what a strange thing to say. or at least a strange way of saying it.
the reason why im telling you all this is because im 100% convinced there is more to all this than some kind of mental illness, no psycologist can covince me othrwise. and im hoping somwon can shed some light on the situation. i think about these things from time to time but really, for the most part i just want to get on with everyday life. and focus on my buisiness and all that. but it would be good to talk to somwon about all this with out the reply being, have you been taking your medication?

pinkpsychic · Site Admin Joined: 16 Jan 2007 Posts: 201

hi welcome sorry about not replying straight away sorry about what you have been through
it sounds like you are having out of body experiences An out-of-body experience (OBE or sometimes OOBE), is an experience that typically involves a sensation of floating outside of one's body and, in some cases, perceiving one's physical body from a place outside one's body (autoscopy). About one in ten people has had an out-of-body experience at some time in their lives. OBEs are often part of the near-death experience, and reportedly may also lead to astral projection. It is claimed that OBErs sometimes observe details during an OBE which were unknown to them beforehand.

In some cases the phenomenon appears to occur spontaneously; in others it is associated with a physical or mental trauma, use of psychedelic drugs, or a dream-like state. It is possible to induce the experience deliberately, for example through visualization while in a relaxed, meditative state. Recent (2007) studies have shown that experiences somewhat similar to OBEs can be induced by direct brain stimulation. Relatively little is known for sure about OBEs. Some of those who experience OBEs may have willed themselves out of their bodies, while others found themselves being pulled from their bodies (usually preceded by a feeling of paralysis). In other accounts, the feeling of being outside the body was suddenly realized after the fact, and the experiencers saw their own bodies almost by accident.

Astral projection (or astral travel) is a paranormal interpretation of an out-of-body experience achieved either awake or via lucid dreaming or deep meditation. People who believe in astral projection believe that the spirit or astral body leaves the physical body to travel in the spirit world or astral, etheric, or spiritual plane

In astral projection the traveller finds him- or herself in an apparently real domain, which has no parallel to any physical setting. This is termed by New Agers and occultists among others as the astral plane or "the astral". Environments here may range from populated to unpopulated, artificial to natural to completely abstract environments and from beautific to horrific. Here, normal physical laws often do not apply. The quality of detail ranges from crude to vivid and fascinating. Projectors may gain access to visions of the past or future of Earth, and to the Akashic records. It has been said that space and time do not exist on the astral plane in the same way they do on earth, or that they can be transcended. Many travelers have theorized that people having dreams travel to the astral realms. Travelers have reported seeing dreamers enact dream scenarios on the astral plane, unaware of the more extensive and varied non-physical environment surrounding them. Some also claim common movements in dreams, such as falling or feeling like you are walking through quicksand, is the astral body in action.

The astral environment is often divided into levels or planes. There are many different views concerning the overall structure of the astral planes, and many different numbering schemes applied to them. These planes may include heavens and hells, places where people go immediately after death, transcendent environments for those who are "more enlightened," and other less-easily characterized states.

sorry its a bit long i hope it helps